I feel like I take more breaks than I play sometimes, but I'm going back on break. And this isn't a week- or two-week-long break, but more like the break I took earlier this year where I was off for two months. It's more like a sabbatical.
I have no clue how long I'll be away from poker, but it's clear I just need to get far, far away once again. Maybe I'm just developing a routine where I play for six months then take two months off then repeat. Or maybe I'm winding down the poker-playing phase of my life. I don't know.
What I do know is that I can no longer concentrate, can no longer make good decisions (or am afraid to act on what I think is a right decision) and I no longer have the proper respect for my bankroll. And all the while, I have lots of personal problems and issues popping up that are just distracting me more (not to mention they're much more important).
And unlike my last break (100/200 PLO, anyone?) I mean it this time. I'm in the process of cashing out my online bankroll, what little is left at least--even during my two-month break earlier this year I kept my online roll in tact. I'm going to distance myself from poker as much as possible for what might turn out to be only one month, or for what might a lot longer.
And unlike my last extended break, I hope to do more than just sit around not playing poker. This will hopefully be a much more active break; cliched as it may be, I'm hoping to do a lot of soul-searching and traveling. I don't think I'm going to run off to Tibet and become a monk, but really, I can't promise that I won't.
So there will be very little poker on here in the coming months, and really might not be much of anything. I'll certainly update if anything interesting or exciting happens. But $18k pots in NL and bluff-capping the river in limit are put on hold indefinitely.